Advent Reading – December 10, 2017

Laurie Pauls – Worship Design Team

2 Corinthians 12:9

It was another ugly morning trying to get both girls out the door. There was defiance and I responded with angry words. There were distractions and I responded with nagging and frustration. Their ears and hearts were closed off to me, so I raised my voice and my words cut deeper.

Normally I pray over my girls as we walk to the bus. I love praying a blessing over them as I send them off. But this morning I couldn’t do it. I was angry at them and I was angry at myself for how I was acting. It bothered me that my heart was so resistant to praying.

I told the girls that I was too upset to pray and asked if either one of them would want to pray. I was surprised that they both wanted to. They each took their turns and they focused their prayers on me – praying that God would help me feel happy again. Their sweet prayers cut through my hardness and melted my heart. They certainly blessed their mama as they skipped off to the bus.

It feels wrong to be the one needing prayer and feeling weak (or angry.) But I am coming to realize that it is not wrong. In fact, it is probably a good thing for my kids to see me struggle, to see my weaknesses. It is probably good for them to see me need their prayers every now and again. Maybe they will grow up with a better understanding or acceptance of their own weaknesses and struggles. That it’s okay to not have it all together all of the time.

Slowly, but surely God is revealing to me how He shows up in my everyday brokenness. How His strength can be perfected in my weakness. He is teaching me that it is not only okay, but sometimes even the best thing to struggle and be weak.

“My Grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness.”

 2 Corinthians 12:9

So Father, thank you for softening my heart with the prayers and love of my daughters. Thank you that You can even use my brokenness for good. You are amazing!